Bleeding...

So much pain...
I don't want this feeling.
My scars are deep,
and cannot be healed.

I am forever wounded..
Forever in pain.
I can't recover.
I am too hurt.

Why would you cause me this?
How could you do this to me?
What are you doing to me?
What did I ever do to you?...


The only thing I've ever done...


Is love you,


And until now, i'm still loving you..
It hurts,
I know it's a long time ago.
But still, I always remember you..


I Love you,
It's not that easy to forget you,
And you,
I know you didn't even think of me.
My heart is bleeding
you'll be here forever...

Reach..

Don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for.
It hurts to reach you when I'm down,
Don't speak again; I'm still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I'm down

My dreams are growing into
Frustrations when I hear your voice
Feeding me till I'm choking
Feeding me till I'm choking
My ears are ringing louder
Repeating words that bring me down
Ringing, my ears are bleeding
Ringing, my ears are bleeding

So hold your breath and spare me
The pointless conversation, I'm running out of patience
Don't blame me for trying to reach..

Don't speak a word about the dreams that I live for
It hurts to reach you when I'm down
Don't speak again; I'm still waiting for my turn
It hurts to reach you when I'm down

As you are moving forward
I feel as if I can't catch up
Trying so hard to reach you
Trying so hard to reach you
I'm stuck here at the bottom
You're too high up to come back down
Trying so hard to reach you
Trying so hard to reach you...

where we started

You're pushing me out
You're pushing me when all I do is not enough
All I do is not enough for you
You've pushed me down
You've pushed me down
Well I'll try and I'll try again
I'll try and I'll try again for you

This distance won't keep your words from screaming my name
This distance won't keep your words from smothering me
If I could keep you out
If I could keep you...

zambales :)

We went to Zambales last Saturday, it's my first time to go out of town, really! we went island hopping to camara, capones and anawangin island! Here are some pictures i want to share guys, the place is so great, it's a paradise for me :)

Again

I love the way your heart breaks
With every injustice and deadly fate
Praying it all be new
And living like it all depends on you

Here you are down on your knees again
Trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again

I love that you're never satisfied
With face value wisdom and happy lies
You take what they say and go back and cry
You're so close to me that you nearly died

Here you are down on your knees again
Trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again

They don't have to understand you
Be still
Wait and know I understand you
Be still
Be still

Here you are down on your knees again
Trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
The floodgates are breaking
And pouring out

Here you are down on your knees
Trying to find air to breathe
Right where I want you to be again
I love you please see and believe again

Here you are down on your knees again
Trying to find air to breathe again
Right where I want you to be again

Humana's 1st year :)

Our account "HUMANA" celebrated its first year anniversary at Le Pavilion Metropolitan Park, Pasay City last July 17, 2010.











First photo, with some of my team mates, dadi joe, jayson, ben and eliza! :)






Second photo,with all my team mates who attended the party that night! my twin jeny was not here, quite sad for us but we know she's enjoying where she is at that time! haha! oh, and also carmelita was not here. she's sick!







This was the picture taken when we rock the dance floor together with our Om Jerick Borja! :) not to mention, we won the first place! lol!







Last photo, after all the ceremonies, we hit the dance floor and dance 'till midnight! it was a tiring night for all of us, especially for us girls.. it's not that easy to wear your high stiletto for long hours! lol! but, we all did enjoy the party! :)

"young maturity"

I'm turning 20 this July, if you will based it on my age,you will say that i'm still young. "Young" in the sense that i'm just beginning to grow up, well actually you're wrong.If i will just tell you one by one all of my experiences in life, you would say that i'm too strong to survive it all at my age. After all, i'm so grateful to have my family with me and didn't leave me despite of all the bad things that i have done. i'm so thankful that they are still there for me whenever i need them. I'm also thankful that i have my "not so perfect boyfriend" with me. We are together for almost four years now, even if we had lots of fights he's still there listening and understanding me and most of all he did accept me and my past. I also thank my friends, even though they're not always here by my side i know that they're always here in my heart. And for all the people who didn't like me and done bad things in my past,thanks as well, you taught me not to give instant trust to any person and faced the reality that not all people whose kind to you will always be the same person when you're not in front of them.

Now, i'm beginning to face the new chapter in my life, no more school, assignments, classmates, teachers (Although i still want to go back to school and finished a degree ,'cause i only had a diploma course, i'm gonna work hard for it) but work, work, work. When i was a student i thought that's the very hardest part of our life,to go to school everyday but that's not true,this one is making me realize that this is just the start of the real life that we need to be independent,we need to stand for ourselves and make plans for our future. i'm still lucky to have a nice job, i already bought some expensive stuff for myself and i want to invest more. :)

Well, for the coming years, i just hope to be more matured,stronger and more blessed.